Dear Awesome Woman,
I shared some thoughts last week in a newsletter titled “Let it Flow, Babe!” The kunst of it was allowing for emotional energy to flow by putting your attention on the physical sensations in your body.
As much as I know this and practice this in my own life, it is not my habit.
My tendency is to stay in my head with my emotions which does not give me the healing or information that I’m wanting now in my life. In order to change this pattern, I need to consciously tell myself – “hey, Meryl, go in – what are you feeling?”
In other words, I need to tell myself “let it flow, Babe!”
A great example of this is my Rat story. Ugh, blech – even the mere mention of that creature makes me cringe. But what an amazing lesson Hashem (G-d) brought to me through this little animal.
I was walking home a few nights ago and I heard a squeak and rustle in the bushes next to me. I turned my head and lo and behold it was a rat. I squealed, jumped and hurried away.
My mind was racing with the image of the rat and I couldn’t stop cringing and thinking “ooh, ugh, ooh, ugh, how gross.”
And then I heard the words “let it flow, Babe!”
Oh, yeah – my body – I’ve got to get in my body.
So, as I continued to walk, I put my awareness on my body – on the physical sensations that were going on in there.
I noticed all kinds of swirling in my chest and abdomen, a felt sense of alarm. I continued to walk and keep my attention on this.
“Wow,” I thought to myself, “such an intense commotion happening in my body.” I reminded myself that I was safe in feeling this intensity.
And that was it.
By the time I got to my house, a few minutes later, my mind was on other things. I totally had forgotten about the rat.
Wow – what a lesson that was for me and I hope for you as well. I used my mind, not as a tool to figure out what I was feeling when I saw the rat – disgust, heebie, jeebies etc. , but as an instrument to turn inwards and notice the physical sensations that were coming up for me.
With the attention on those, the emotional energy dissipated and so did the sense of alarm. The energy didn’t get stuck in my body. By the time I stepped into my house, my body felt calm and my mind ready to engage in interacting with my family.
I’ll end here with some words of gratitude to the rat – thank you for presenting me with the opportunity to “let it flow!”