Dear Awesome Woman,
I’m writing a memoir and as I go back in time, there are some pretty funky emotions around what I’d call the ‘trauma of change’ that pop up as I write. The body holds memories in its cells and because I’m drawing on my history, I’m also stirring up somatic sensations. I’m fortunate to be able to heal these as they come up because of the mindbody tools I have to process emotions such as sadness, grief, fear, vulnerability, shame, and trauma sensations such as freeze, fight and flight.
I also receive intuitive messages when the energy of these sensations has flowed and the one that emerged for me recently was this one: ‘One must make oneself vulnerable in order to change and bring in more amazing things into one’s life. It feels like fear, but is often vulnerability and the ego is what is afraid of dissolving what it holds to be true.’
As I track a part of my life’s journey through writing this memoir, I’m able to see things from a different perspective than I had when I was actually in that part of my life. I was going through a transformation and had much resistance to it even though I was the one making choices and dragging myself forward. That push/pull felt like torture at the time, but from a higher perspective, I can see the beauty of what was taking place.
I hope that the intuitive guidance that came through for me, helps you in changes that you may be making at this time. What feels like fear, may be vulnerability. The ego does not like change nor growth, and yet for us to welcome more beauty into our lives, we must transform ourselves. Like a caterpillar changing into a butterfly undergoes the dissolving of form, so too must we take steps that cause parts of ourselves to dissolve in order to emerge into another beautiful being.
Are you journeying through a transformation and feeling overwhelmed by the emotions surfacing? Or are you wanting to take steps towards change, but are fearful of being overwhelmed? I’m happy to help and be your guide 🙂 Schedule your free Clarity call here and let’s get YOU the clarity, movement, and freedom you desire.
With Love and Blessings,
Miriam Racquel (Meryl)